my concience feels alot better, but I still as if im floating thru each day as it comes.. like im not HERE.. each class during school i stare at the clock mindlessly doing my work, during lunch i walk around automatically laughing when needed along with my friends, they dont know that im not alive. when i get home.. i sit on this very computer with headphones on listening to music that moves me, the only thing that does... but right when i am almost feeling good, my father comes home and tells me to get off the computer- so i got to my room and stare at the ceiling while mindlessly watching disney movie after disney movie... i need to feel better about being here.. i need to live again..